XPath
Everything that looked hard before in CSS and HTML and XML looks easier now. But XPath still looks hard. I'm not even clear what is XPath, what is the software we are using, and what are the other things built on top of it. I draw in class when I'm confused.
I've spent a lot of time drawing. Last weeks class was all done in class. I could keep up. Others couldn't but I could. My confidence is low. I'm not keeping up. There seem to be people keeping up. I'm not. I know others are overwhelmed too but they are going home and working on this so they know how to do it.
I told myself I should go home and work on it too. Should. My wife and I invented a way of breaking down 'should' statements.
What does 'Should' Mean?
- I want to
- I need to
- I'm able to.
In order to say 'I should' do it, 2 out of 3 need to be true.
So lets break it down.
Do I want to? I'm actually not sure. I'm depressed right now and it is hard to tell what I want. But I can say yes, I am driven to do this. I want to enjoy this class and get lots out of it.
Do I need to? In order to keep up with the class, yes. But I'm getting a lot out of it as it is. I know I'll have to review some of it later but I think I am probably at capacity for what I am currently capable of.
Am I able to? I don't think so. There are headaches and chores to contend with. And as I learned yesterday, daily habits are the most important piece of the puzzle. If I've established a habit it keeps me functional and stable enough to keep learning.
So, should I? The answer might seem like 'no' but it's actually yes. I do want to underneath the depression. I do need to to get more out of the class. And if I don't have a headache I am also able to. But I'm definitely not going to spend 2-3 hours going over the lessons. If I am able to I will go home tonight and show my wife what I've been working on. I think that's all I need. I think I've been rather secretive and I need to share this with someone in my life. But only if I am able to.
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